Lost but found!

I moved across the country and changed my life completely, I left everything behind and reinvented who I was.
Yet sometimes I look around me and I feel lost, because I don't recognize anything that is me. I don't recognize myself anymore, whether that's good or bad I don't know. Maybe its good maybe in killing everything that was I have found myself, Maybe in reinventing myself I have really just found what was buried deep down all along.
But maybe its bad, maybe in killing everything that was once me I also killed me, maybe in reinventing me I have reinvented away the core of things I used to hold dear.
There are times I feel as if I am but an observer watching this girl who is supposed to be me living a life that is supposed to be mine.
I miss so many things from my former me, I miss the person I once was at some point. That girl who looked at the world with wonder and joy who had so much ahead of her and nothing behind her. Through living I lost the joy and wonder I lost the dreams, now I look at this girl and I wonder is this really me.
But that happens to everyone, we all reach a point where we realize the world is not the place we once thought it was. That the dreams we once had are lost somewhere along the road we have traversed.
But that doesn't necessarily mean we have lost ourselves it just means we have reinvented ourselves. we have changed the dreams we used to have because they no longer fit the person we are. I think the only crime in that is thinking that some how we have failed that we have somehow lost ourselves by living.
You haven't lost yourself just because the glasses have come off and you have gained knowledge, you haven't failed because you've changed. We all change, we all grow, we all learn!
Living and changing, that's part of life that's part of being who you are! So when your looking around and you don't recognize where you are and who you are and you feel those feelings of loss and failure know you haven't failed, you've been living!
With living comes change, growth, and even failure and that is beautiful!